get off me

i fucking give up on the whole army thing. i cant function like this. shit comes up, and they want me to do it, then they schedule me for shit i need to do, then i dont get the other stuff done, then i get yelled at for that bull shit. then, i dont get half the information i need to get my shit done at work, and i get yelled at. ill admit, yes, i should have taken notes at the damn class, but if he would have just taken time, i would have remembered it and i would have learned something. fuck, im still learning, just be fucking paitent with my fucking ass. plus, im tring to not think about home, and then they ask me, have you called your parents, then that just makes me think im a horrible son, bad friend, and then i start thinking about her, and then makes me all fucking depressed and shit. god damn, yep, you can think, wow, hes suicidal, fuck off, i do what i need to do. how do you cope, probley nothing worth my time listening to because i find it either gay or retarded. get off my balls, i just want some peace and quiet, i want some zen, i want nothing more than for a successful day where nothing can go wrong. those are gone, and i cant do shit about it. man, if you feel me, just throw on your record and vibe, post up on the floor and look at what i see, if you can feel it falling around you, then welcome to what i live.

fuck off.

leaps of faith

man, all ya got to do is just have some blind faith. sometimes things always dont seem to be seen, but not all of our physical eyes need to be used. the heart sees so much more than what we comprehend. have a little faith and it will come through, with me atleast.

if only she knew or believed me

man, if only i could tell her. i know she is not built for us, but to me, she is perfect in every way. if she were to leave and i were to never hear from, i would die. the main reason i continue on is because i know she is behind me. choices we have made have kept us apart, and for reasons which i cannot explain, she has kept her distance, but i want you to hear this, i love you.

TURDHEAD,

DUCES

dont pick up

heres a question i thought of in the last attempt to call a friend of mine that hasnt picked up for a bit...

why, when we make phone calls and they dont pick up, sit and wait for the voice message to finish talking before hanging up?

is it because we want to hear the voice of the person we're tring to get ahold of? is it that we want the call to feel like it was worth something? or are we hoping that they will pick up in the middle of the voice message?

well thats all for now. duces, yo.