Light This Candle

I light this candle, using it to be a beacon for your soul, to find me and comfort my heart. You can lift my head and make me see what was given to the world. All those who feel left behind, take their hands, and guide them in their paths to safety. Thank you for knowing me, and letting me know you, you will never leave our hearts.

to my departed friend, johannes.

the hardest revolation

Ive been thinking, and realized, that im one who needs quality friends, and not quantity. i have a friend to thank for that, and that is probley why i do am not able to find a good woman. yes, women are attracted to independant guys, who seem bad ass and such, but once that wears away, theres only a guy under the surface whos looking for someone to be there constantly. if a girl who really wants me, better come to me as a friend, and then work the way up, make sure im the one they want, even with my friends, i am always with them because i am a social creature with my quality friends. rushing into things, just ruins the quality of life, and it makes it crappy. from here, i cant think of anything else to say, so ill just end it. later yoz.

things

howdy. things are quite odd, and im also missing a lot of events going on in my world. things going on at home, here, there, where ever. people getting together, people breaking up, people having children, and people growing up. sometimes, i feel lost, just still a child crawling through life, finding out what my purpose is, but, what if i have none, what if im just playing it off to keep myself from diving and becoming a wreck? do all things have a purpose?
well, we'll see how things roll out, if i go insane, or do somethign amazing. hope to post again, later ya'll.

Meditation continuation...

my mediations, have been scarce as of late cause of my hectic work schedule, and just the level of energy i can devote to doing it. every once in a while i also try to look for a spirit guide, like what the native americans used, not an angel or whatever, just a spirit to be tehre to ask the questions or to listen. so far, its either a babbling spanish woman in flannel shirt and blue jeans, or it was just a random thought. but im still searching. call me a mystic or whatever, but its just something im working on.


as an idea that just came up, im also going to post libra information, so if you have a question on who i am, or waht i am like, you can refer to that. so, ill get at ya'll later.

death letters

is it wrong to write a death letter? in preperation of me leaving to get deployed, ive been working on death letters to people i love and care about, knowing my luck though, ill never have to deliver them, cause if i say it, or think it, it wont happen, so hopefully that luck/unluck carries over. as a matter of opsec, i cant divulge any departure dates or locations, but if you follow the war and stuff, you'll have a good idea. well, im off to bed, just had to post this idea before i forget. thanks to all who read this, and if anything happens, and you dont get a letter, i love you too.